I had just re-read Steinbeck’s The Pearl when the news of yet another friend’s demise arrived. I don’t exactly remember why I called this song “The Pearl” except Steinbeck’s Pearl was something coveted and was going to improve the lot of Kino and his family. Maybe it is about searching for pearls, but never finding it or finding it like Kino did, and realizing it was going to destroy you. Artificial happiness is never as stimulating as actual happiness.
You thought you'd get away with it Thought you'd never get caught What were you expecting? This is what you got This is what you got This is what you got It wasn't what you wanted It wasn't what you thought You got a belly full of pain A pocketful of dust Your heart broken again And a junkyard full of rust You wanted to stay high Have a permanent good time Now you're struggling to get by And you're hungry all the time This is.... (8) You wanted a big change A change at any cost Look at what you've gained Look at what you lost This is..