A friend of mine relayed the story of her elderly mum’s death to me. My friend’s Mother was given a break for the weekend from looking after her husband who was quite “labour intensive” due to his advanced Alzheimer’s. When the husband was returned to their apartment, his spouse was gone. She had died over the weekend.
Many of the lyrics in my song are actually transcriptions of his words in his bewilderment. Picture a child’s perspective of trying to understand loss and at the same time the life partner’s shock at having lost.
“Someone always leaves first” is an expression my wife uses often. Although inevitable, it is always a shock.
How can this be? how can you do this to me? What am I going to do without you? How cruel and unkind To be left behind I wanted to go with you! I've looked for you nearly everywhere You're not in your room, or your favourite chair There isn't a note, how can you be so remote When you know I've devoted The best of my years to you How can this be?... You're nowhere to be found And I don't understand How you could leave me behind You were here yesterday But you aren't here today I'm going out of my mind How can this be?... I want to hear your voice I want to be given a choice I loved everything about you You left me here, stranded I've come up empty-handed I can't go on without you How can this be?